快乐与痛苦是连体婴,背对背,谁也少不了谁,是名副其实的‘痛快’i love this quote. no idea.. im weird i guess (: but who's normal anyway.. we all are living in a quirky world anyway ((:
seriously.. why watch those soap opera when one's own life can be full of drama and the excitements..... and everything. basically anyway.
well.. i've receive yet another answer saying it is possible for me to change from semester 1 to semester 2 commence. well. yea. still in the process of asking.. ah well...
yea. went swimming with ting they all. quite fun xD tiring. my eyes hurts.. haha
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Monday, November 24, 2008
... seriously this is too tiring
... i dont know. just received the reply from melb uni. they say most probably i'll have to wait for the next intake since the results wont be out just yet. somehow.. this is frustrating.
on other hand.. this has thrown me into yet another confusion. what should i do now? should i just apply for local uni? should i find out when the results will be out? i doubt it'll be on time anyway >< this is maddening.
on one hand.. i feel kinda melancholic. sad. this is a good opportunity i supposed... i mean.. med is not easy to get into.. neither is the school.. i guess.. and so.. im pretty sad.. >.> i wonder if i can change to the entry from second semester? hmmm.. oh man. this is sad.
no mood do anything le >.> sigh..........................
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Saturday, November 22, 2008
maybe...
i've been thinking... maybe.. just maybe.. i'll try it out. it's not everyday that i'll get accepted to such school... and, think on the bright side.. its only 3 yrs excluding the exemptions and advancements.. so.. well.. furthermore.. i'll still have to enquire about my results and their start of semester.. and.. whether or not i can get the prerequisite grades.. ( im praying hard!! well.. i think i should be able get an A for math.. i think.. and... i hope at least B for bio... what i fear the most... my chem and gp >< i really really praying hard ><)
still.. have to thank all those who prayed for me ((: well.. this is one step closer.. i went wiki find the meaning of biomedicine.. they say its theoritical medicine. more geared up towards the work of cells, medicine etc rather then human medicine. so its more of research.. but, afterward, i can continue with my medicine/surgeon like hey come on lahz, with a bachelor degree only.. how survive!!
so yeap. i guess i'll send them the enquiry... then..if they still want me...
oh man.. i think im a nervouswreck ><
and im sorry i didnt go volley today.. pretty tired.. didnt receive msg. so i assumed none. call me also prety late le.. acc to me lahz. and when i really went out.. forgot my wallet. so yea. in end lazy ><
ah well.. im tired sigh~
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Friday, November 21, 2008
OMG!!! IM ACCEPTED!! shit. have to get the pre-required grade of ABB for A's.. meet the English proficiency knowledge, and, the thing is.. they start on march 2 for semester 1 >< oh dear......
as i said. life is having damn lotsa fun with me right now. before, i had just (seriously.. JUST minutes ago..) typing about how i'm pretty confused and wondering if i got accepted..
but.. now im accepted to biomedicine course.. 3 years.. bachelor degree.. of course im gonna continue to med/surgeon.. which gonna be another 4.5-5 years..
so im gonna waste alot of money!! oh no. gonna be old and poor when i grad ><
and... oh man.. there's alot alot alot considersation now i realised. which i didnt or rather choose to ignore then.. thinkin its impossible for me to get in with the kind of results i sent to them >< (DEECB seriously no A at all >.> well.. cept chinese n pw >.> )
OH MAN!!
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Liberation
It's funny the way life shows us what's important, what is not.
pretty sure that many people would feel the same way-- that is, when you're experiencing all the pressure, the rushing for dead-line... even the feeling of "what's the use, im dead" kind of feeling, all of us wants it to be over, as soon as possible. comtemplating on what to do after A's... all the japanese lessons, baking, or whatever enrichments planned.
the funny thing is.. for me, sure, i'm glad it's finally over. who likes to spend days hours to study anyway. but, then, what happen? i feel pretty lost. have no idea what i want to do with life. adults around me would remind me, your school life is the best part of your life. at those times, i thought i understand. maybe even now even as i thought that i understand it better, may not be the case. sure, with globalisation the world is not that big anymore. still.. it's big for one who have no directions in life.
no, i wont say that i enjoyed those days where i had to wake up early in the morning, ran to catch the train and bus to get to school on time. sure, i'll like the sleeping in times.. without worrying that i'm running late. but, as time passes.. it loses its meaning.
"to-day, what is to-day" i love lit precisely because i can quote any part of the texts which really a good representation of what i'm feeling right now. this quote is from Murder in the Cathedral it really just trying to say, days seem to be of the same weightage as one another, you won't know which are the days in which the choices you made, the actions you take will create a turning point in your life. It's only in reflection, when maybe years had passed.. when you look back and say "ah! that was the day!"
i guess the most important thing i can do now is to take each day on my stride, i won't know which one will make a difference in my life, that will be the surprise life has in store for me, but im sure i'll learn something out of it.
i haven't pack my luggage. this time, i think i'll be bringing most of my stuff over. you know.. sometimes i hoped that i'll get accepted into melbourne. well of course my mom cant really afford it for me. keeping in mind, my brother will be finishin high school next year too. but, there's a little part of me that wishes to be able to experience new things. sure, im scared, sure i'll worry. but then, if i don't break out from the safety of my cocoon, when will i learn to be totally independent?
of course, i'll miss my friends, teachers, family if i do really leave for melbourne (that is if i get accepted-- though i think it'll be pretty hard ><) and yes i find it pretty difficult to maintain friendship over long distance. can see my indon friends all become near strangers to me right now. i don;t know... sometimes, i also wishes to remain here...
"Obscure! Obscure!" Heart of Darkness
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Saturday, November 01, 2008
NOT gonna online til A's over xD
lalalallala.. jia you people!! ((:
pretty scary actually.. stressed.. but i think the pink girl we saw in the library even more stressed.. she stuck pink papers all over the table in front of her "CONCENTRATE!" "I'M THE BEST" "I CAN DO IT" FASTER!" etc etc.. and most of her stationaries are pink!! hence the nickname =p