快乐与痛苦是连体婴，背对背，谁也少不了谁，是名副其实的‘痛快’i love this quote. no idea.. im weird i guess (: but who's normal anyway.. we all are living in a quirky world anyway ((:
im still in a depressed mood.. basically about anything and everything. here i am, about to take the next step in life; and there i was, hovering at the edge. should i take the next step? should i plunge into the valley of unknown? i have no idea.
will there be a safety net? or will i, keep on falling deeper and deeper.. i put on a false facade, of courage, of confidance. but do i feel that way? i wish i have a definite answer. but what's life without its secrets?
the safety of something familiar? and the danger of something new which would i choose? friends or studies, the finger hover unknown. the pressure is on, survival of the fittest. would i remain standing, tall and proud; or crumble in despair.
throw the mask away. i wanted to be me. but others expect much more... so much more. will there be a shoulder i can lean on, a listening ear to borrow; i guess not. you wont understand; the uncertainties i feel.
it's not a matter of how well i do; it's a matter of does it worth it? do you understand? i guess not.
you may say im worrying too much, or i should be happy and proud. the smiling mask you'd always seen me in; its cracking, and a tear has found its freedom- through the crack.
in the dark veiled night, the cool moonlight my only companion. shielded from the harsh light, i mend my mask. another empty smile; you so often see me in. facing another day with the garment of courage and confidance.
hiding the emotions with the smile pasted on my face. i forgot how i looks like. im starting to lose myself, to the uniformity of everything arounds me.. another step into the abyss.
