快乐与痛苦是连体婴，背对背，谁也少不了谁，是名副其实的‘痛快’i love this quote. no idea.. im weird i guess (: but who's normal anyway.. we all are living in a quirky world anyway ((:
i've made my decision, the step i want to take to take me nearer to my choice. i've done it based on what i see in my heart; and not what others said.
i remembered a line from a poem which goes something like 'to leave the world unseen' and ' drought with vintage' actually it wasnt about suicide or anything. i like it, it just describe me somehow.
to drought with vintage and to leave the reality into the realm where im in control. i guess thats describe all the times i went to day dream. though without the vintage.
do i sound like a mum? i hope not. went to njc today with belinda. attached ourselves to eugene. didnt realised that boshen and xiang ling same class as him. anyway, i kind of like it. maybe i'll go there.
i feel as though im growing up. probably am. i realised how lucky i am. i may feel like a crap, or in confusion, or being blurz queen, but there's always friends by my side, helping me.
it made me wonder, did i appreciate them enough? or did i, all these while, take them for granted. maybe at some point of time, i was. should learn to appreciate more of others.
yea, thats what i should do. i am going back to css tomorrow if i can. i hope i can. maybe just the sense of familiarity will give me some sense of security.
or will it, instead reminds me of how different, outsiders now to them? i have no idea. i sounds so pessimistic these days.
i should try to be more optimistic. my english sucks. im getting more random. but at least im no longer depressed. i guess...
